LLLoooooooooooVVVVVVeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I love that I only have 10 and a half more hours of work until I'm on a four day vacation! (not consecutively of course) but just tomrrow and the rest of today- I cannot wait! I also Love that it's been in the upper 80's all week, Jarad and I have been doing so much outside in the evenings and I love it! I love that I was on a sandbar last night, with my boyfriend, as the sun was setting, I told him we were standing in a postcard for Nebraska. I love that he picked up a "sea shell" and gave it to me, told me to pretend we were on vacation by the ocean and put his arm around me. I Love that he held my hand as we strolled across the sand, stopping and blocking each other when the wind would gust it around. I love that he is making plans for our future 4-wheeling adventures together, I love that we hiked thru an old german cemetery. I love that we watched deer run thru the forest and we watched a raccoon scavenge thru a field. I love that we read the newspaper online during the day and then we talk about the articles after work. I love that he helped me find an old door for my door project and that he's going to help me find another. I love that he actually communicated with me that he was happy with us, that we were good, really good, I love that he said it and that I agreed and that he didn't just assume I knew. I love that he conquered his jeep all in one afternoon, and I love that he then tries to explain to me how the car is put together, what each part does, and what it's called, and I love that sometimes I even understand. I love that he lets me do the grilling and always enjoys what I make. I love that he knows all my extremely tickalish spots and never hesitates to use them against me.

(Insert Deep Breath Here)

I love that on Friday I'll have my credit card paid off in full. I love that June is the last time I pay rent at an apartment I've grown to hate. I love that I've finally figured out how to combine my furniture with Jarads. I love that he trusts me to decorate, but he still lets me know that he doesn't do well with curtains or flowers, he also told me he didn't do well with candles, but I slipped in a few with no complaints. I love that he knows I'm an obsessive compulsive "nester" and home decor is my hobby and I love that he doesn't mind, I love that taking apart his car for an entire evening is his hobby and I love the way he looks when he's covered in oil, elbow deep in an engine. I love that he knows that the mower we use to mow our yard is the same one he was working on the day I drove up in a golf cart to introduce myself. I love that he remembers in detail what the weather was like when we shared our first kiss and that it is the reason he loves cloudy rainy days in the spring. I love that he has wonderful and crazy stories about his life and his experiences. I love that he loves my family and I love that I consider his family as my own. I love that we both feel the need for exploring and learning. I love that we both cherish the history of things, where they came from, what their story is, etc.

I love that I'm on top of the mountain right now, like I told Jarad last night- there will be valleys again, I'm sure of it, but I'm going to induldge in our extremely high peak right now :)

I love being in love with my best friend.

Peaks and Valleys

Well, my coworker and I were having a conversation about how our lives are always a series of peaks and valleys, and specifically relationships are definately that way, I would like to happily state that Jarad and I are out of our valley and on the way up a beautiful and fantastic peak. He was so good to me this weekend, and most of last week as well, but it felt like he made sure that he and I had our time even just a few minutes here and there to be us, and this is especially impressive considering he worked all weekend and was pretty exhausted. So, I feel I may have overexagerated our valley the other week/weekend, we did go thru a valley that is for sure, but it maybe was more of a medium size valley and less of the grand canyon.. lol.. Anyway, we are both improving on our faults and life seems really good today :) - Before I forget - HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!!!!! (Ok, a day late but still) I had a fantastic breakfast with my grandma, mom, and family.. I got to chase after my neice and nephew for a few hours and that always lifts my spirits.. at 1 and 3 years old they are defiantely a handful!! I love that my brother says my Neice takes after me, she is a total tom boy, loves playing in the dirt and getting dirty, not so much about dresses and dolls.. haha - my family also says she is like me because she's very intense, always observing everything, loovvvess books and pictures, and also (like yours truely) she's an eater.. haha not picky about her food, will eat about anything at anytime.. lol.. I can't wait to watch her grow up! Here's a random picture of Miss Kinley Ann so you can imagine how she has me wrapped around her dirty little fingers!

This picture was from around Valentines Day, so you can imagine how much she has grown and is even more on the move in the last couple of months, she is already walking!

Anyway, enough proud Aunt talk..lol.. I'm trying to focus on things that make me happy because currently work is NOT one of those things, I can't figure out exactly what is going on with my boss but he is stressed and isn't being a good boss, he is snippy and has an attitude with me, and it's annoying because he was the boss that I could always talk with and now it is NOT that way, I'm hoping that whatever is going on with him passes and things go back to normal, he has been acting this way for a while now so I don't know... I'm frustrated and I don't do well with attitude especially from men who area already a little too full of themselves for their own good... but I didn't mind that when he appreciated me, now that he doesn't show me that appreciation, I'm starting to agree with most peoples interpretation that he is just a cocky jerk. Oh well, I keep using the common line in this generation "at least I have a job..."

I'm excited because I decided to take May 22nd off of work, which means I'll have a four day weekend with Memorial day on Monday the 25th! Four entire days off of work are going to be fantastic!!!!!! It can't come fast enough..lol.. I worry about my BF tho because it doesn't sound like he'll have any days off anytime soon, he's pretty sure he won't work on Monday of Memorial Day, but that still means two more weekends in a row, which basically means he'll have worked 21 days without a day off... ugh... I can't imagine! I have so much respect for his dedication to what he does, and I hope that my support is helpful and I hope he recognizes my support! I'm pretty sure he does, there hasn't been a stressful situation that has come upon us yet that I haven't charged into and worked my hardest to help him thru, so yeah, I think he knows I'm here to help... lol..

So tomorrow, my boss is having a seminar that will last until about 6:30pm, which means I'll be working almost a 10 hour day, that kind of sucks, but at the same time.. it means I get to shorten the rest of the days in my week AND I get to have free dinner and a pretty good restaurant. So, I'm not complaining, except knowing my luck, Tuesday will be the warmest nicest day weatherwise, and I'll be stuck inside..lol.. again, oh well at least I get to leave at 3pm for most every other day this week :) Which means less than 2 and a half hours till my day is over!

I think I'm going to wrap this up and do some online window shopping for a bit.. haha - I just wanted to shout from the top of my peak that we made it thru the valley and life is fantastic!