I've obviously been neglecting the ol' blogger- and since I am FINALLY having a slow day at work, I decided to stretch my fingers and release some thoughts, since I clearly have not done so in a while, and Jarad has commented that he does not approve of my writers strike (more like writers block for me) I let my head get wrapped around too many other things, there is always something that seems more pressing, or more important. For example, my latest endeavor has been getting one of my medical bills paid off, I plot and plan, and I get on my spread sheet and calculate if I only pay this on that, and that on this, I can pay this much on that bill. Well, the good news? It works! My goal was to have the bill paid off by April 10th, and I will actually have it paid off by March 13th, so I'm a month early! Which is fantastic because that just means that is that much more money I can put towards another bill :) - I know, I let myself get too wrapped up in bills, money is money, there is never going to be enough of it, but when you get yourself in the debt that I did, after breaking my leg with no health insurance, it starts to weigh on you, you start to feel like your drowning in debt, not to mention the school debt I have (which compared to most is minimal, but still there) and then the random credit card debt, which again is very minimal, but with every other bill, not all that easy to just pay off. The good news is I got my merit raise, which is basically a 3% raise, which doesn't seem like much, but it's almost $70 dollars more per month, and I get my recruiting commission, which varies from month to month, but this month is almost $300 - YAY! Ok, seriously, do you see what I mean? My mind is one track, I can't even write about anything but budgeting.... argh - changing subject...
It's supposed to be almost 60 degrees out today, woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm leaving work by 3pm, and hoping to wash my car and spend some time outside.. I'm sort of like a guy when it starts to get nice out, I just tinker around the yard, looking for things to do, one of many reasons that Apartment living makes me want to throw up, there is no yard to wonder around!! Thankfully, I take advantage of Jarad's - it's small but I'm looking forward to fixing up the rock/bushes area around the house.
Speaking of the infamous JayRad... we are happy :) - He has been very concious of me lately, and I feel almost spoiled! He has been noticing things that I need or would like, and in return, I think I've become much less demanding and I'm completely satisfied with our life and our relationship, instead of constantly trying to improve it. We have definately reached a very spectacular place in our relationship, which we all knew would happen in due time, but man I'll be the first to admit it did not come fast and it did not come easy, but it was all totally worth it. Communication has been a key point that we have worked on lately, and something we will continue to work on I'm sure of it, I used to think that I was "the communicator" that I always said what needed to be said, but I've realized, that I think about everything that needs to be said, and I think that I'm showing it, but what I think in my head is not always what I'm showing and it's definately not what I'm saying (that might be confusing) but it makes sense to me and I'm working on actually saying the things I think, especially the good things, like when Jarad does or says something that I really like, I used to smile and assume he knew it, now I smile and make sure that he knows it.
I feel like I'm still kind of teeter-tottering in the career world.. I love my job, the people I work with are fantastic, they try to compensate me the best they can (especially in today's economy) but the bottom line is, I'm not going to be doing this forever. I already feel like, though I'm exceptionally good at what I do, it's because I should be, it's because I have a college degree, experience in a business setting, and I'm extremely driven, basically, I am probably over qualified for the job I do. Most of the staff around me do not have college degrees, and this is one of the first offices they've worked in- granted, our jobs are different, I work for the two vice presidents, they do not, I have to deal with recruiting, they do not, etc etc.. but in the end... someday, I will need to challenge myself again, and I'm terrified but excited to do that, and more than anything I'm clueless on how... I got a little time, I figure I'll be 24 in 6 months, a lot of people are just finishing or still in college at that age, I've been at my current job for 2 and half years, and... well, I just think that you know if in the next year or two an event were to be planned, that would require me to change my last name, and I would need to take some time off, I'd rather be at my job that is flexible and allows me quite a bit of time off... enough said. lol
So let me tell you about the very exciting month of March! First of all, coming up very soon is the Cross Canadian Ragweed Concert!!! This is Jarad's favorite band right now, and I can't lie, their music has very much grown on me, I've liked it from the beginning but originally I didn't like who introduced it to Jarad, now, I'm past it, you can't let immature people stop you from liking a really good band! So, that is March 4th, then I took March 5th off of work just because I knew it would be a late night and I'm due for just a day off :) - Then, March 17th is St. Patrick's Day, which is one of my FAVORITE holidays...it's a family thing, I've grown up knowing a lot about the Irish heritage in my family and so we like to make big to dos about the green holiday. Most exciting about St.Patrick's day is going to O'Neill, NE - that will be the weekend of March 20th- 22nd. My brother,sister-in-law, sister, brother-in-law, two of their friends, Jarad, me, and two of our friends are all heading up to O'Neill, it is the Irish capital of Nebraska and around St.Patrick's Day turns in to Spring Break in NE, haha - They have parades, and everyone dresses in their crazy green gear, every one of the 3 bars is jam packed full, they have food vendors all over the little town, and the hotel offers shuttles to and from any place you need to go (no driving after green beer) - Anyway, it's a blast and one I've enjoyed with my siblings for several years now. I can't Wait!!! THEN, the following weekend, Saturday, March 28th is my work Awards Banquet, it is at the Lied Lodge in Nebraska City, which I hear is really cool, Jarad and I got our dinner paid for, our hotel room paid for, all we need to do is show up in our black tie attire and have fun! There is also a wine tasting hayrack ride, which should also be really cool. I haven't been to Nebraska City since I was really young, so I'm excited to check it out... plus, most of the people I work with are a lot of fun, tho they are a bit different than Jarad and I are used to (since they are 'city folk') - they are really nice, and I think it's good for us to have a change of pace once in a while! So, yes March should be full of fun, although the weekends are jammed packed which means not a lot of time to relax! Oh well, it's about time we start coming out of hybernation!
I might as well keep going, I realized that today is Ash Wednesday, which means that today is the beginning of lent, and some people choose to give things up for the 40 days of lent... I was thinking about that, and it kind of seems like something I should do, maybe not for all the religious reasons, but more just a way to push myself into being a better person, for 40 days.. lol... gotta start somewhere right? - So I've been debating all day on what to give up, or what to start (ie excercising, flossing every day, etc) ideally, I'd like to go walking every day... but with the weather so up and down and me hating the cold so much... I don't know if I could get myself to do it on the cold days... then I thought about giving up fast food, which really wouldn't be that hard for me, I never crave fast food, but it would be difficult because for 1. I date Jarad who is hooked, and for 2. It's convenient... but really, I don't typically eat fast food unless its recommended by someone I'm with, ramen noodles are cheaper and just as convenient, (you can subsitute other things besides ramen, but you get my drift) - So if I do the fast food thing, I think I need to get JayRad on board with me... I weighed a couple of other options in my head, but with all the partying coming up, things like giving up beer would be nearly impossible... haha So, I'm currently undecided, I'll talk it over with a few more people today before I make my decision....
Hmmm, well it's 1:30pm- I have an hour and a half left to go, and I wish I could think of something that would make that time go quickly... but not be soo overwhelming that I have to stay late.. I have a few calls to make, but nothing that will take an hour and a half.. hmm - the thought of sneaking out at 2:30 weighs in the back of my head, it would just mean that I'd have to work later tomorrow and/or Friday, but hey it's supposed to be cold and freezing rain those days, so it's worth it... right?! We'll see, but I'll wrap this blog up for now- I hope my updates and rambling weren't too boring, Jarad was correct in saying that I need to write... for me it's like the need to eat, sleep, and pee... you just have to do it. :)
Until next time....
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