Distraction from Reeses

ha - Yes, I have a packagee of Reeses on my desk and I want to eat them, but I just ate lunch and I have three hours left in my work day and I figure I should save them as a snack, at least let my lunch digest a little before devouring them. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups are my favorite candy. I've officially decided that, if I were a state, my state candy would be Reeses. Ok, so you get my point- anyway, the bosses have left for a while today and I don't have a whole lot going on, so I decided to take a break and write again. I don't have much of anything interesting going on to write about but oh well...

Tonight is Jarad's Ham Radio Club Meeting, and apparently the guest speaker is some emergency weather guy, so Jarad is excited and wants me to go with him, so I am, I'm excited for the social part of it, the old guys in this club are very funny and the women are probably twice as funny... lol... so I'm looking forward to it, afterwards I think we are going to go over to our friend's Niki & Chris's house- we've never been there and have been making promises to stop by for a while. Jarad has to work early on Saturday morning so it won't be a late night, but I'm kind of glad... I've been really tired lately, and I thought I was getting sick because my body has been really achy and I've been getting headaches more frequently.. so I'm hoping that some extra sleep will help with that this weekend. I have to say, it was one of those weeks that flew by, but seemed to last forever. I know that doesn't seem to be possible, but if you have had a week or day or even month or year that has flew by but each individual moment seemed to drag on.. you will know what I'm talking about.

Last night Jarad and I went out driving in the truck in the country for a while before we met a friend at franky's for pizza and a pitcher... it was soooooooo nice to be a.) in the truck because it wasn't running for a while, and b.) out on our gravel roads... those roads have been there for Jarad and I thru our entire relationship, those roads are our relationship counselor, our retreat from reality, our laughter and our tears... the night we reunited we went driving on those roads, and every time we find ourselves stressing over our lives, or each other, we find that a drive in the country with no place to go, allows us to open our minds and our hearts to each other... it really means a lot to me, I feel like I can breath again when we get out on a road where all you see is fields and random farm houses in every single direction, no distractions of tv's or computers, just the radio with good music, the rumble of the truck, and the sound of our voices... These things that I'm talking about right now, are the things that have led me to so concretely believe that I need to settle down and live my life in the country....

So, I realized I need to pull myself out of that daydream.. lol.. it's kind of like going to my happy place and I could ramble about it for a very long time... so what else? Well, no major plans for this weekend, which I'm pretty happy about, I'm sure I'll find some random project, I need to spend some time with my Madre... she and my Dad were in Mexico for two weeks, they came back last saturday and I haven't even seen her since they've been back, and I didn't get to see them before they left either, so probably haven't seen the rents for over a month, and tho that's actually pretty typical for our family, my Mom dropped some hints that she would like to have dinner or something to catch up and hear about the oh so exciting life of Jarad and Kate..lol..

It's interesting for me to observe the relationships of parent/children... I moved out of my parents house on August 17th, 2003 and I've never lived with them since, I lived in the dorm for a semester, an apartment with my cousin in Lincoln for 2 and a half years, and then in several apartments and homes in Omaha for the last 3 years... I've had to pay my own bills, budget my money, and take care of my own stuff for 6 years.. granted I'm not saying I did all of those things correctly all the time, it was a learning process, and I learned a lot! Jarad has officially been out of his parents house for one year now.. and I know he too has gone thru the learning process, but sometimes I feel like the different levels that we are on in this process can be a strain... probably more so on me, mostly because I'm female and I over analyze most everything, but sometimes I just wish that he would actually listen and learn from the 5+ years I have of experience over him, just on this one thing.. he is always teaching me things, I learn soooo much from him and I appreciate that, in fact I need it... but he doesn't really ever want to learn from me, or at least he doens't want to admit it, most things I try to explain to him, he disregards or already knows more about it than I do.. maybe it's just because I put him on a pedestal because I think he is amazing, so I assume he already knows everything.. lol.. he isn't a "know it all" and he doesn't have an attitude (most of the time) and I know and love that he is sooooooooo intelligent, so I suppose I can handle his approach to learning from me... at least for now :)

Well, time is not going fast enough today, I really want a reeses.. ha

I got a few things that came to me while I was writing this, that I need to do for work, so hopefully I'll get those done and it will be 2:30pm- I am sneaking out at 2:30pm today.. I stayed late yesterday and no one will be here between 2:30 and 3 to know when I left.. haha Anyway, enjoy your day, enjoy your weekend (even though it will be cold and miserable, at least in NE) stay warm with those you love...