So Much for Sneaking out Early

I just wanted to update a few things from the Friday Blog..
First of all, those few things that "came across my desk" while I was blogging, ended up being very time consuming and very annoying projects, I did not get out early- in fact I ended up staying late, and it seemed like everyone here wanted me to make miracles happen! So I was not a happy camper when I left work on Friday, then my car was making a funny noise and it started snowing on my way home, so the drive home was not fun either. When I got home, I just wanted nothing else be to lay down with a pillow over my head, I felt like I couldn't talk or listen to anyone else that day with out screaming.

So, Vicki- if/when you read this, I feel really bad that I missed your call when I got home on Friday, you totally should have just come to the house and left the camera there, I really would not have minded at all, overall I was just having a crappy crappy day.

So, when I finally wrapped up Friday afternoon and ran out of the office to avoid someone else coming up and asking me to do something stupid, I dreadded today because I knew I would have to deal with the follow up of Friday's tasks... and pretty much that is what today has been, plus some... it's been busy, but I guess I shouldn't expect anything less this time of year, between year end values and tax documents, nobody is happy, and I'm lucky enough to be the person who answers the phone when they need to bitch.

The only thing getting me thru these next couple of days is the fact that Cross Canadian is on Wednesday night, the weather is supposed to be a little better in the upcoming days, and I have Thursday off of work. I wish I could say this was all stress free.. but it is not- Nate is going to the concert, and I suspect he will be an asshole to me like he has been for the last 6+ months... this would be one thing, ok so Nates a jerk, end of story- the stressful part comes when Jarad is buddy buddy with him, and I know he will be, especially at this concert- I know it's a strain on Jarad for his friend and his girlfriend not to get along, the part that bugs me is it's Nate's fault we don't get along, I tried several times to clear the air with him and he still treats me like crap... if I were Jarad, and that were my friend, I wouldn't put up with it, not for a second... but Jarad does, and worse than putting up with it, he hides it from me... he tells me that Nate mentioned he would probably go to the concert, the reality? Jarad told him about it and invited him to go... It's a real kick in the stomach, but I'm even over that.. all I want now is Jarad to comfort me when I worry about it, and every time I bring it up and ask for that, he says I'm overreacting, or changes the subject, I just want him to tell me it will be ok, that he won't let Nate take over this concert, I bought the damn tickets for us and our friends to go, not for Nate to make me feel like crap... it's kind of like Nate is another girl.. I mean ultimately, girls get upset about other girls because they feel like the other girl is trying to take their man from them, is trying to tell the man not to be with them... well that's exactly what Nate does, it makes me wonder how Jarad would feel if I happened to text Dennis and tell him when the Red/White Husker game was, and tell him I was going and then happen to meet up with him and other mutual friends there... that would suck and I would never put Jarad in that spot, yet somehow he fails to realize that is exactly what he is doing to me. UGH

Ok, positive thoughts, positive thoughts, the concert will be fun, and I have a day off, positive thoughts...

Good luck with your positive thoughts on this Monday, I'm not doing so well with them, so if you are..send some my way!