ha - Yes, I have a packagee of Reeses on my desk and I want to eat them, but I just ate lunch and I have three hours left in my work day and I figure I should save them as a snack, at least let my lunch digest a little before devouring them. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups are my favorite candy. I've officially decided that, if I were a state, my state candy would be Reeses. Ok, so you get my point- anyway, the bosses have left for a while today and I don't have a whole lot going on, so I decided to take a break and write again. I don't have much of anything interesting going on to write about but oh well...
Tonight is Jarad's Ham Radio Club Meeting, and apparently the guest speaker is some emergency weather guy, so Jarad is excited and wants me to go with him, so I am, I'm excited for the social part of it, the old guys in this club are very funny and the women are probably twice as funny... lol... so I'm looking forward to it, afterwards I think we are going to go over to our friend's Niki & Chris's house- we've never been there and have been making promises to stop by for a while. Jarad has to work early on Saturday morning so it won't be a late night, but I'm kind of glad... I've been really tired lately, and I thought I was getting sick because my body has been really achy and I've been getting headaches more frequently.. so I'm hoping that some extra sleep will help with that this weekend. I have to say, it was one of those weeks that flew by, but seemed to last forever. I know that doesn't seem to be possible, but if you have had a week or day or even month or year that has flew by but each individual moment seemed to drag on.. you will know what I'm talking about.
Last night Jarad and I went out driving in the truck in the country for a while before we met a friend at franky's for pizza and a pitcher... it was soooooooo nice to be a.) in the truck because it wasn't running for a while, and b.) out on our gravel roads... those roads have been there for Jarad and I thru our entire relationship, those roads are our relationship counselor, our retreat from reality, our laughter and our tears... the night we reunited we went driving on those roads, and every time we find ourselves stressing over our lives, or each other, we find that a drive in the country with no place to go, allows us to open our minds and our hearts to each other... it really means a lot to me, I feel like I can breath again when we get out on a road where all you see is fields and random farm houses in every single direction, no distractions of tv's or computers, just the radio with good music, the rumble of the truck, and the sound of our voices... These things that I'm talking about right now, are the things that have led me to so concretely believe that I need to settle down and live my life in the country....
So, I realized I need to pull myself out of that daydream.. lol.. it's kind of like going to my happy place and I could ramble about it for a very long time... so what else? Well, no major plans for this weekend, which I'm pretty happy about, I'm sure I'll find some random project, I need to spend some time with my Madre... she and my Dad were in Mexico for two weeks, they came back last saturday and I haven't even seen her since they've been back, and I didn't get to see them before they left either, so probably haven't seen the rents for over a month, and tho that's actually pretty typical for our family, my Mom dropped some hints that she would like to have dinner or something to catch up and hear about the oh so exciting life of Jarad and Kate..lol..
It's interesting for me to observe the relationships of parent/children... I moved out of my parents house on August 17th, 2003 and I've never lived with them since, I lived in the dorm for a semester, an apartment with my cousin in Lincoln for 2 and a half years, and then in several apartments and homes in Omaha for the last 3 years... I've had to pay my own bills, budget my money, and take care of my own stuff for 6 years.. granted I'm not saying I did all of those things correctly all the time, it was a learning process, and I learned a lot! Jarad has officially been out of his parents house for one year now.. and I know he too has gone thru the learning process, but sometimes I feel like the different levels that we are on in this process can be a strain... probably more so on me, mostly because I'm female and I over analyze most everything, but sometimes I just wish that he would actually listen and learn from the 5+ years I have of experience over him, just on this one thing.. he is always teaching me things, I learn soooo much from him and I appreciate that, in fact I need it... but he doesn't really ever want to learn from me, or at least he doens't want to admit it, most things I try to explain to him, he disregards or already knows more about it than I do.. maybe it's just because I put him on a pedestal because I think he is amazing, so I assume he already knows everything.. lol.. he isn't a "know it all" and he doesn't have an attitude (most of the time) and I know and love that he is sooooooooo intelligent, so I suppose I can handle his approach to learning from me... at least for now :)
Well, time is not going fast enough today, I really want a reeses.. ha
I got a few things that came to me while I was writing this, that I need to do for work, so hopefully I'll get those done and it will be 2:30pm- I am sneaking out at 2:30pm today.. I stayed late yesterday and no one will be here between 2:30 and 3 to know when I left.. haha Anyway, enjoy your day, enjoy your weekend (even though it will be cold and miserable, at least in NE) stay warm with those you love...
Friday, February 27, 2009
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
A little of this a little of that...
I've obviously been neglecting the ol' blogger- and since I am FINALLY having a slow day at work, I decided to stretch my fingers and release some thoughts, since I clearly have not done so in a while, and Jarad has commented that he does not approve of my writers strike (more like writers block for me) I let my head get wrapped around too many other things, there is always something that seems more pressing, or more important. For example, my latest endeavor has been getting one of my medical bills paid off, I plot and plan, and I get on my spread sheet and calculate if I only pay this on that, and that on this, I can pay this much on that bill. Well, the good news? It works! My goal was to have the bill paid off by April 10th, and I will actually have it paid off by March 13th, so I'm a month early! Which is fantastic because that just means that is that much more money I can put towards another bill :) - I know, I let myself get too wrapped up in bills, money is money, there is never going to be enough of it, but when you get yourself in the debt that I did, after breaking my leg with no health insurance, it starts to weigh on you, you start to feel like your drowning in debt, not to mention the school debt I have (which compared to most is minimal, but still there) and then the random credit card debt, which again is very minimal, but with every other bill, not all that easy to just pay off. The good news is I got my merit raise, which is basically a 3% raise, which doesn't seem like much, but it's almost $70 dollars more per month, and I get my recruiting commission, which varies from month to month, but this month is almost $300 - YAY! Ok, seriously, do you see what I mean? My mind is one track, I can't even write about anything but budgeting.... argh - changing subject...
It's supposed to be almost 60 degrees out today, woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm leaving work by 3pm, and hoping to wash my car and spend some time outside.. I'm sort of like a guy when it starts to get nice out, I just tinker around the yard, looking for things to do, one of many reasons that Apartment living makes me want to throw up, there is no yard to wonder around!! Thankfully, I take advantage of Jarad's - it's small but I'm looking forward to fixing up the rock/bushes area around the house.
Speaking of the infamous JayRad... we are happy :) - He has been very concious of me lately, and I feel almost spoiled! He has been noticing things that I need or would like, and in return, I think I've become much less demanding and I'm completely satisfied with our life and our relationship, instead of constantly trying to improve it. We have definately reached a very spectacular place in our relationship, which we all knew would happen in due time, but man I'll be the first to admit it did not come fast and it did not come easy, but it was all totally worth it. Communication has been a key point that we have worked on lately, and something we will continue to work on I'm sure of it, I used to think that I was "the communicator" that I always said what needed to be said, but I've realized, that I think about everything that needs to be said, and I think that I'm showing it, but what I think in my head is not always what I'm showing and it's definately not what I'm saying (that might be confusing) but it makes sense to me and I'm working on actually saying the things I think, especially the good things, like when Jarad does or says something that I really like, I used to smile and assume he knew it, now I smile and make sure that he knows it.
I feel like I'm still kind of teeter-tottering in the career world.. I love my job, the people I work with are fantastic, they try to compensate me the best they can (especially in today's economy) but the bottom line is, I'm not going to be doing this forever. I already feel like, though I'm exceptionally good at what I do, it's because I should be, it's because I have a college degree, experience in a business setting, and I'm extremely driven, basically, I am probably over qualified for the job I do. Most of the staff around me do not have college degrees, and this is one of the first offices they've worked in- granted, our jobs are different, I work for the two vice presidents, they do not, I have to deal with recruiting, they do not, etc etc.. but in the end... someday, I will need to challenge myself again, and I'm terrified but excited to do that, and more than anything I'm clueless on how... I got a little time, I figure I'll be 24 in 6 months, a lot of people are just finishing or still in college at that age, I've been at my current job for 2 and half years, and... well, I just think that you know if in the next year or two an event were to be planned, that would require me to change my last name, and I would need to take some time off, I'd rather be at my job that is flexible and allows me quite a bit of time off... enough said. lol
So let me tell you about the very exciting month of March! First of all, coming up very soon is the Cross Canadian Ragweed Concert!!! This is Jarad's favorite band right now, and I can't lie, their music has very much grown on me, I've liked it from the beginning but originally I didn't like who introduced it to Jarad, now, I'm past it, you can't let immature people stop you from liking a really good band! So, that is March 4th, then I took March 5th off of work just because I knew it would be a late night and I'm due for just a day off :) - Then, March 17th is St. Patrick's Day, which is one of my FAVORITE holidays...it's a family thing, I've grown up knowing a lot about the Irish heritage in my family and so we like to make big to dos about the green holiday. Most exciting about St.Patrick's day is going to O'Neill, NE - that will be the weekend of March 20th- 22nd. My brother,sister-in-law, sister, brother-in-law, two of their friends, Jarad, me, and two of our friends are all heading up to O'Neill, it is the Irish capital of Nebraska and around St.Patrick's Day turns in to Spring Break in NE, haha - They have parades, and everyone dresses in their crazy green gear, every one of the 3 bars is jam packed full, they have food vendors all over the little town, and the hotel offers shuttles to and from any place you need to go (no driving after green beer) - Anyway, it's a blast and one I've enjoyed with my siblings for several years now. I can't Wait!!! THEN, the following weekend, Saturday, March 28th is my work Awards Banquet, it is at the Lied Lodge in Nebraska City, which I hear is really cool, Jarad and I got our dinner paid for, our hotel room paid for, all we need to do is show up in our black tie attire and have fun! There is also a wine tasting hayrack ride, which should also be really cool. I haven't been to Nebraska City since I was really young, so I'm excited to check it out... plus, most of the people I work with are a lot of fun, tho they are a bit different than Jarad and I are used to (since they are 'city folk') - they are really nice, and I think it's good for us to have a change of pace once in a while! So, yes March should be full of fun, although the weekends are jammed packed which means not a lot of time to relax! Oh well, it's about time we start coming out of hybernation!
I might as well keep going, I realized that today is Ash Wednesday, which means that today is the beginning of lent, and some people choose to give things up for the 40 days of lent... I was thinking about that, and it kind of seems like something I should do, maybe not for all the religious reasons, but more just a way to push myself into being a better person, for 40 days.. lol... gotta start somewhere right? - So I've been debating all day on what to give up, or what to start (ie excercising, flossing every day, etc) ideally, I'd like to go walking every day... but with the weather so up and down and me hating the cold so much... I don't know if I could get myself to do it on the cold days... then I thought about giving up fast food, which really wouldn't be that hard for me, I never crave fast food, but it would be difficult because for 1. I date Jarad who is hooked, and for 2. It's convenient... but really, I don't typically eat fast food unless its recommended by someone I'm with, ramen noodles are cheaper and just as convenient, (you can subsitute other things besides ramen, but you get my drift) - So if I do the fast food thing, I think I need to get JayRad on board with me... I weighed a couple of other options in my head, but with all the partying coming up, things like giving up beer would be nearly impossible... haha So, I'm currently undecided, I'll talk it over with a few more people today before I make my decision....
Hmmm, well it's 1:30pm- I have an hour and a half left to go, and I wish I could think of something that would make that time go quickly... but not be soo overwhelming that I have to stay late.. I have a few calls to make, but nothing that will take an hour and a half.. hmm - the thought of sneaking out at 2:30 weighs in the back of my head, it would just mean that I'd have to work later tomorrow and/or Friday, but hey it's supposed to be cold and freezing rain those days, so it's worth it... right?! We'll see, but I'll wrap this blog up for now- I hope my updates and rambling weren't too boring, Jarad was correct in saying that I need to write... for me it's like the need to eat, sleep, and pee... you just have to do it. :)
Until next time....
It's supposed to be almost 60 degrees out today, woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm leaving work by 3pm, and hoping to wash my car and spend some time outside.. I'm sort of like a guy when it starts to get nice out, I just tinker around the yard, looking for things to do, one of many reasons that Apartment living makes me want to throw up, there is no yard to wonder around!! Thankfully, I take advantage of Jarad's - it's small but I'm looking forward to fixing up the rock/bushes area around the house.
Speaking of the infamous JayRad... we are happy :) - He has been very concious of me lately, and I feel almost spoiled! He has been noticing things that I need or would like, and in return, I think I've become much less demanding and I'm completely satisfied with our life and our relationship, instead of constantly trying to improve it. We have definately reached a very spectacular place in our relationship, which we all knew would happen in due time, but man I'll be the first to admit it did not come fast and it did not come easy, but it was all totally worth it. Communication has been a key point that we have worked on lately, and something we will continue to work on I'm sure of it, I used to think that I was "the communicator" that I always said what needed to be said, but I've realized, that I think about everything that needs to be said, and I think that I'm showing it, but what I think in my head is not always what I'm showing and it's definately not what I'm saying (that might be confusing) but it makes sense to me and I'm working on actually saying the things I think, especially the good things, like when Jarad does or says something that I really like, I used to smile and assume he knew it, now I smile and make sure that he knows it.
I feel like I'm still kind of teeter-tottering in the career world.. I love my job, the people I work with are fantastic, they try to compensate me the best they can (especially in today's economy) but the bottom line is, I'm not going to be doing this forever. I already feel like, though I'm exceptionally good at what I do, it's because I should be, it's because I have a college degree, experience in a business setting, and I'm extremely driven, basically, I am probably over qualified for the job I do. Most of the staff around me do not have college degrees, and this is one of the first offices they've worked in- granted, our jobs are different, I work for the two vice presidents, they do not, I have to deal with recruiting, they do not, etc etc.. but in the end... someday, I will need to challenge myself again, and I'm terrified but excited to do that, and more than anything I'm clueless on how... I got a little time, I figure I'll be 24 in 6 months, a lot of people are just finishing or still in college at that age, I've been at my current job for 2 and half years, and... well, I just think that you know if in the next year or two an event were to be planned, that would require me to change my last name, and I would need to take some time off, I'd rather be at my job that is flexible and allows me quite a bit of time off... enough said. lol
So let me tell you about the very exciting month of March! First of all, coming up very soon is the Cross Canadian Ragweed Concert!!! This is Jarad's favorite band right now, and I can't lie, their music has very much grown on me, I've liked it from the beginning but originally I didn't like who introduced it to Jarad, now, I'm past it, you can't let immature people stop you from liking a really good band! So, that is March 4th, then I took March 5th off of work just because I knew it would be a late night and I'm due for just a day off :) - Then, March 17th is St. Patrick's Day, which is one of my FAVORITE holidays...it's a family thing, I've grown up knowing a lot about the Irish heritage in my family and so we like to make big to dos about the green holiday. Most exciting about St.Patrick's day is going to O'Neill, NE - that will be the weekend of March 20th- 22nd. My brother,sister-in-law, sister, brother-in-law, two of their friends, Jarad, me, and two of our friends are all heading up to O'Neill, it is the Irish capital of Nebraska and around St.Patrick's Day turns in to Spring Break in NE, haha - They have parades, and everyone dresses in their crazy green gear, every one of the 3 bars is jam packed full, they have food vendors all over the little town, and the hotel offers shuttles to and from any place you need to go (no driving after green beer) - Anyway, it's a blast and one I've enjoyed with my siblings for several years now. I can't Wait!!! THEN, the following weekend, Saturday, March 28th is my work Awards Banquet, it is at the Lied Lodge in Nebraska City, which I hear is really cool, Jarad and I got our dinner paid for, our hotel room paid for, all we need to do is show up in our black tie attire and have fun! There is also a wine tasting hayrack ride, which should also be really cool. I haven't been to Nebraska City since I was really young, so I'm excited to check it out... plus, most of the people I work with are a lot of fun, tho they are a bit different than Jarad and I are used to (since they are 'city folk') - they are really nice, and I think it's good for us to have a change of pace once in a while! So, yes March should be full of fun, although the weekends are jammed packed which means not a lot of time to relax! Oh well, it's about time we start coming out of hybernation!
I might as well keep going, I realized that today is Ash Wednesday, which means that today is the beginning of lent, and some people choose to give things up for the 40 days of lent... I was thinking about that, and it kind of seems like something I should do, maybe not for all the religious reasons, but more just a way to push myself into being a better person, for 40 days.. lol... gotta start somewhere right? - So I've been debating all day on what to give up, or what to start (ie excercising, flossing every day, etc) ideally, I'd like to go walking every day... but with the weather so up and down and me hating the cold so much... I don't know if I could get myself to do it on the cold days... then I thought about giving up fast food, which really wouldn't be that hard for me, I never crave fast food, but it would be difficult because for 1. I date Jarad who is hooked, and for 2. It's convenient... but really, I don't typically eat fast food unless its recommended by someone I'm with, ramen noodles are cheaper and just as convenient, (you can subsitute other things besides ramen, but you get my drift) - So if I do the fast food thing, I think I need to get JayRad on board with me... I weighed a couple of other options in my head, but with all the partying coming up, things like giving up beer would be nearly impossible... haha So, I'm currently undecided, I'll talk it over with a few more people today before I make my decision....
Hmmm, well it's 1:30pm- I have an hour and a half left to go, and I wish I could think of something that would make that time go quickly... but not be soo overwhelming that I have to stay late.. I have a few calls to make, but nothing that will take an hour and a half.. hmm - the thought of sneaking out at 2:30 weighs in the back of my head, it would just mean that I'd have to work later tomorrow and/or Friday, but hey it's supposed to be cold and freezing rain those days, so it's worth it... right?! We'll see, but I'll wrap this blog up for now- I hope my updates and rambling weren't too boring, Jarad was correct in saying that I need to write... for me it's like the need to eat, sleep, and pee... you just have to do it. :)
Until next time....
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