This is my best friend of all time, Jess, we've been "bffs" since high school, we've gotten into and gotten out of a lot of trouble together, we are now roomates, and I love her to death- She is the friend that I'll never question, she'll be honest with me even when it sucks to hear the truth, but then she'll throw her arm around me and tell me sometimes it's more fun to lie and make mistakes :)
This is an equally important lady in my life, Rebecca, we have been close friends for over a year now, we have also been roomates (at two different houses) for almost a year. I appreciate Becca in my life because we give and take from each other, in some ways I look up to her. 
This is another pic of Jarad and I, Jarad (as previously mentioned) is an old best friend, and a new, possibly more than friend.
This is Dennis, where do I even begin... Dennis and I met in October of 2005. We started casually dating and I originally thought that it wasn't going to end up being more than friendship, so I dated other people, I went to Costa Rica for a month, and shortly after I returned Dennis asked me to go out to dinner as friends, or whatever. We did and I'm not sure what had changed about him, or what had changed about me, but I felt like we were closer and a little bit more mature, so we started dating, March 1st, 2006 Dennis officially asked me to be his girlfriend. In May, 2006 I graduated from College and moved to Omaha (where he lived)- In December 2006 he and I moved into a house with Rebecca, and two of Dennis's friends, Mark and Tyler. Things were always easy with Dennis, we didn't fight a lot, in fact hardly ever, we both enjoyed a lot of the same things, our Dogs, Huskers, social activities with his friends, who now after this long had become some of my closest friends as well. We went on a cruise together with Jessica and Rebecca (that's where the pic is from) and we went to Costa Rica together with my sister and her husband, and some of their friends. Dennis, from the very beginning made my life easy, he was always willing to help with the things I needed, he nursed me through my broken leg, he helped me get through writing a thesis to get my degree, I never once doubted that I could count on him, in fact I still don't doubt that he would be there if and when I need him. Dennis is and was a very important part of my life, but around September 2007, I started realizing I wasn't completely happy. I had gotten into a rutt, I wasn't myself anymore, I wasn't doing the things that made me who I wanted to be, and I had to make a change. Now it is hard enough to change yourself into a better person, let a lone try and change someone else with you. I tried to change myself and still be with him, but it didn't work- I just couldn't seperate him from all the other things I was trying to separate myself from. It's not his fault, it's never been his fault... So the changes that needed to be made is where it started, and that only got the ball rolling, it made me consider my future, and where I saw myself, and who I saw myself with and at this point after 2 years of being with someone, I really had to take a step back and see if at this point I was truely happily in love with him. I couldn't say that I was, I couldn't say that I was unhappy, but I couldn't say that it was the perfect situation and we would get married and lead the perfect life, I just couldn't commit to that, so I decided I needed my space, I couldn't live with him anymore, I cared for him more than he probably ever knew, but I had to distance, I had to force myself to live my own life, for me, as me. So Dennis moved out, we fought for a while always about stupid shit, but we also talked and remained some sort of friends, it just seemed like you can't have that good of a relationship with someone and not keep them in your life. There are still things that make this kind of friendship hard, obviously any guy that I date now doesn't like Dennis because they are threatened and Dennis doesn't think any other guy is good enough for me. I can't blame either party for thinking the way they do, I would be the same way, I don't know what the future holds for Dennis and I, but I can tell you he will forever be an important person in my life, and one of my very best friends.
This is my baby, Chloe Ellen Givens, she is shy and scared of everything, but she has always been there to cuddle me when I'm sad and jump around with me when I'm happy. Chloe has been there with me thru it all, though she is scared, she is stronger than she looks.
And this is Kitty, yes she is a giant dog (great date) who's name is Kitty.. I named her, and the name fits her perfectly, she is soooo sweet and tried to act tough when someone came to the door, but ultimately she was always more afraid of you than you thought you were of her. Sadly, Kitty is a big dog who eats a lot of food and she is a high maintenance diva dog, who needed and deserved a lot of attention. So when Dennis and I lived together it was easier for us to take care of her between the two of us, but when he moved I couldn't do it alone and he couldn't have dogs at his new place, so we gave her to Dennis's uncle, who lives alone and needed the companion, not to mention he is on a farm, so she is spoiled, with lots of room to run and lots of attention to get. I miss her though, the largest sweetest animal I've ever loved.
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